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It's been quite eventful since I lasted updated, quite crappy really..

Firstly Rose broke things off, she says it's because she has so much on her plate at the moment and that she doesn't have the time for a relationship.

For a few days there I was really devastated and angry and upset. I still miss her, but I guess time heals.

I still hope one day we might pick things back up, because It felt like something so good had only just started and I guess that's what made me the most upset, that it was over before it really even began. I just hope things get better for her soon and that she's happy, she's a great girl and she deserves it.

I feel like a right dick about hassling her though, at the time there was a whole heap of shitty things bringing me down and I guess I got a little desperate.

*sigh*

On another note I started my new job at civic video, it aint too shabby, pays pretty well, but I'm still getting the hang of the computer system and serving customers and all that sort of stuff. They kinda threw me in the deep end there, but I guess that's kind of a good way to learn.

Wai-con also came and went for another year and it was pretty disappointing actually, the weather was absolutely RANCID, like 100% humidity, it took an hour to even get a pass and the whole atmosphere  was pretty shit compared to past years. Lot's of unfriendly sweaty people = no fun.


Anyways, gotta get ready for work. tata xx

Just got back from Australia day celebrations, got into the city drunk as a skunk and hung with my mates in Kings Park.

The fireworks were rad.

Favourite quote of the night by random group of girls on the train (directed at me) 

" It's a girl, she has a vagina."

If I didn't feel such such crap I would have said back " no, I'm old Gregg, I have a mangina."

ha ha

Oh I'm going to have a headache tomorrow :]

peace xx

I'm finding it harder and harder to just spend days at home, I can't just relax but I can't concentrate either.

I miss her so much but I don't want to go down the path of being "clingy".

I'm not so good at relationships I don't think :/

And I'm so fucking sick of being a temporary cripple, stupid foot.

grrr.

I need to escape.

Well here goes..

I'm Ellie, visit my myspace page if you're that interested, I'm not sure if this sort of thing warrants an introduction..

Whatever.

Alright, news, updates, rants and all that jazz;

It's nearly the end of January 2009 and I guess I've started the year better than expected. 2009 is meant to be "my year" or so I keep telling myself and hopefully ten times less stressful.

I got into the University course I wanted, which is rad (Bachelor of Arts) but some part of my brain insisted this year should be a "break" of sorts (from studying/deadlines and whatnot) so I've deferred until 2010.

I'm starting to doubt that decision a little though, it seems without the endless nightmare that is TEE there aint an awful lot to do. Oh man I gotta fix my attention span, or find something to amuse it,  like a puppy I am.

I am also decidedly lacking in inspiration for my art at the moment. I mean, I occasionally come up with half-decent idea's, but they don't really amount to anything..*sigh*

Oh woe is me, ha ha.

On a positively rad note I've finally found the most amazing girl, which makes me happy to no end *sighhhh* :]

I have no idea what this year will hold, hopefully a heap of fun and excitement and rad memories made, I think I'll just leave it up to fate.

Peace out for now home slice xx